what is fucking stopping me?
yeah i was thinking of '' how about my parents thinking of me for leaving them after I quit my job''?
i mean, i am so afraid of failure!
i am so afraid that i am wasting my time when i think of something to do.
i am so frustrated that i feel i am doing nothing.
i am so scared to be in this state forever.
i am so afraid that i cannot find the way out.
i stopped myself.
i come to the entrance, and then i asked me to go back.
i am tired of these shit.
i keep comparing myself to others,
i want to be as brilliant as they are RIGHT NOW
i want to be successful
i want to be perfect
what is wrong with me?
that is PART 1, thank you!